So it is becoming very apparent that I suck at waiting. I am exercising self control and not calling the agency all the time. Actually, I have only called them once, and they said that the scrapbook looked awesome, someone had already looked at it, and she liked it the best. Still, said person is no where near the point of choosing adoptive parents. So we wait, and wait some more. And after 4 1/2 years of waiting, I grow impatient. And I was not a patient person to begin with!
It probably does not help that EVERYONE at work is preggers. I am so envious of their luxury of being able to plan. I am so unsure when or even if a baby will be in our future. There is no due date and no ultrasound to tell me boy or girl. I would love to start buying clothes and decorating the nursery, but I both don't want to jinx myself, and I have no idea when baby boy or girl will be here. So I look at names and dream. And I look at nursery stuff and dream. Hopefully one day. . .
Tonight as I was looking at some blogs, I realized that I really should just be thankful for what I have (ha, ha--after I just griped for two paragraphs). But in all seriousness, I came across several adoption blogs where the little angels are sick with cancer or heart problems. I feel for these families and pray their babies get all better. Some have prayer requests so I will link those to my blog in the near future.
No pictures to post today. I haven't really taken any since Christmas. My cutest subjects, nieces and nephews, haven't been around lately. Hopefully in the next post. :)
Friday, January 16, 2009
Not good at waiting
Friday, January 2, 2009
A new start
As you may have noticed, I have removed a lot of the Vietnam information from our page. That is because our adoption, like so many others, fell through on Sept. 1. We were devastated, and lost a lot of time, money and emotional investment. I guess you could say that I have been going through a grieving process, and I don't know that I will ever feel truly okay about losing out on my chance for a Vietnamese princess. Still, life must go on, and Chris and I still want to start a family. Our next step was to pursue adoption in Taiwan. I was ready to mail off the money when the US gov't did something else to ruin our chance of a VN adoption (I won't go into it here, but I am disgraced by some of the people who work for the US government). Anyway, we felt like we could not take a chance on international adoption again. I wish we could, and I respect those who are persevering, but it's not for us. So we decided to go with domestic adoption. I know that this process has its own list of risks, but we are going to give it a try, and hope it works out. I guess today is the beginning of the new adoption. After spending months on the adoption scrapbook, today I mailed the scrapbook, application and fee. The agency already has our updated homestudy. So now I guess the waiting begins. Hopefully soon we will welcome sweet Caroline into our home and heart. . . or maybe sweet Logan!
On another topic, Christmas was wonderful, happy and blessed. . . and busy, tiring and loud!:) Here are some pics of the little ones (nieces and nephews):
